Oh What? You Thought I'd Have An Answer By Now?

I'm not sure what is going to happen first...

Getting an answer...

or...

My mind imploding from the constant stress/pressure/excitement of waiting for an answer.


I am remaining grounded (ish). I am trying to think of all the negatives of even the most positive outcome (the only defensive mechanism I have left). There can always be a downside if you need there to be one.

More money?... we've grown so much from our financial struggles!

Full benefits?... who needs that!

You see? See how many downsides there are if you look hard enough.


No, seriously, there will be very real stress either way. Just new stress... which... might be somewhat lessened by being able to afford takeout again.


In other news I have NOT gotten all badass on myself. Yesterday, when I put on my jeans, Mr F actually said "Those look a little tight." Isn't it against the law for husbands to reveal that kind of honesty?! (It should be.) I blame the candy corn, Halloween M&Ms, fun size Twix, & peanut butter cups (WHAT?!!! there was a freaky sale). Well I'm over the candy. I had enough and I'm going on a candy free binge until ACTUAL Halloween. I pinkie swear.

I finished Kid's costume. And, ladies & gentlemen, it is all kinds of impressive. I have skipped the beading... since... Kid didn't notice there wasn't any... and who am I to remind her? That cut out HOURS of labor. I might even make Baby a matching costume with the extra ultra suede... or new couch pillows... it's kind of tough call.

And my Dad & his wife arrive on Thursday. And my Mom & her husband arrive on Saturday. I actually think that's a good arrangement. We just need to find appropriate beds for everyone. And try not to spend a gazillion dollars on food. I'll be putting on my thinking cap in regard to that today.

Oh and Kid's birthday is on Saturday and I need to start putting some kind of thought into that as well.

The Week... In Review

Okay here's how it all went down. I did in fact cook all my scheduled meals, with one deviation... okay two... I made peanut noodles with the steak and salad on Thursday... Steak and salad just didn't seem that filling. Friday I just couldn't get worked up to cook so we had take out and then I pulled it together and made the salmon on Saturday and I am currently slow cooking the pulled pork as I write this. In root beer... I'll let you all know how that turns out. So did it save me money? I'm not sure but it was probably one of the least stressful cooking weeks I've had in a long time, and I didn't end up throwing stuff out that I didn't get around to using. I'm kind of stuck now trying to think of a new menu for this coming week... I can't just repeat, can I?
I also have been kicking ass on the cleaning. Yes I know most of you probably already do things like wipe off your stove, but we Furious' tend to be a wee bit lazy... So after my massive pantry overhaul and floor cleaning.. I vacuumed on Friday (I know shocking! I even vacuumed the stairs!) I cleaned the stove, bathroom and stainless appliances. I've also been trying to keep things picked up as I go. And Yes it is easier but it does take some getting used to. I mean my natural tendency is to see something on the floor and think "I'll get it later" Unfortunately that is everyone is the Furious household's natural tendency so our floors, counters, tables can become quite cluttered. I do think maybe there is something to feeling more in control of my body and that freeing up more psychic energy that I can devote to organizing my environment. We'll see. It is hard to stick to stuff if I don't have the whole family on board. Being organized is great, but if in so doing you become homicidal than maybe it isn't worth it....
So over all a pretty good week. I have accepted that fact that in order to get stuff done I have to actually do it. Sounds a lot like dieting ;)

I've updated my "Weight loss Story" at the bottom of the page. I'm getting more traffic than I had anticipated, and realize that you might not all know how this all began. The new version is quite long winded.... but thorough!