Fake It Till You Make It

A lot of what has been keeping me from blogging regularly... outside of just a tremendously busy schedule and little time at home with my computer!... is that I just got out of the daily habit.  And like anything else (working out, ahem) just figuring out how to fit it back in can seem overwhelming.  But unlike working out, blogging can feel like a completely unnecessary thing to try to fit into an already over stretched schedule.  A selfish thing.  The first thing to cut.

Except that isn't true.

I've given up a time and space for myself... for creative expression & friendship building.  A space that starts blank but ends up filled with thoughts and opinions and ideas I hadn't even intended to express.  Blogging helps me.  It helps me to better know myself.  It is more self fulfilling than selfish and, yes,  there is a difference.  Removing that from my daily life has created a huge void and I often feel adrift.  Moorless (which it turns out isn't a word, but let's all agree that it should be).   I need anchoring, to something other than my carpool schedule.  Desperately.

For the next 3 months I am putting a few things at the top of my priority list (after caring for my kids of course).  I am working out every day.  I do have time, I just have to protect that time.  I am also going to blog every day.  Instead of sitting down while I eat my breakfast and checking email, getting a Facebook update on everyone, and scrolling through my blog reader...(and you know what that does?  It says I'm starting my day on someone else's agenda... have you found that?  Someone's email or update will start a snowball effect that can steamroll my whole day and take me way off of the course I had intended to set)... I am going to write a post.  It might be short, it might be long.  I just need to get this ball rolling and stop feeling like I owe you all a recap.

One post done and I already feel better.

See you tomorrow.