Yesterday turned into a rather bad day.
Kid and I got into it over spelling.
I was not/am not proud of my own behavior.
She can push my buttons.
But, my reaction was beneath me.
I know better.
And, I should have done better.
We ate some pumpkin gingerbread.
But, you can't take away what you have said.
And, so, I'm still not over it.
She told me...
"Mom, when you see me tantruming, than you might want to change your tone."
I laughed, and said...
"It's not always that easy. When you hear my tone, you might want to stop tantruming."
Which was generous of her.
Because, she was right in the first place.
Once I came upon some woman's wisdom, somewhere out on the internets. The gist of what she wrote, or the part I took away because it rang so true, was that when your children are the most repulsive to you, that is when they need you the most. It has proven a very hard standard to live up to. One I fail at more times than I'd like. But something that I think is important to reach for. Yesterday I failed. Today I'm hoping to do better.