To both live my life and write about it at the same time.
I feel very different from the person I was three years ago when I started all this.
In ways that are harder to talk about.
I don't want to alienate the friends I've made... but... I think that's getting hard not to do.
The things I think about are much more serious... much less frivolous... maybe less generally relatable (or maybe not...).
Sometimes I don't know what to say (here) without seeming like I am trying too hard to avoid the obvious.
Sometimes I feel like you bought a different book only to find in Chapter 20 that it isn't what you thought at all.
And maybe you don't like it. Or won't.
But I just am not the same.
Sometimes I see old posts I wrote 3 years ago... and it's like I was on Crack back then.
Like looking at a photo album from college.
Things were easier.
And, yet, this is a good time in my life.
Better (on a deeper level).
Less talk, more action.