I'm sick of feeling like shit about myself.
I'm hoping I finally mean that.
I feel like I do... but... the motivation to actually stick with something beyond a handful of days has been elusive up to this point.
It turns out having your kids with you 24 hours a day, makes it even harder to put your needs first.
I'd really like to replace the amount of time I feel shame about my lack of effort...
with... pride at actually making a fucking effort.
So I'm just going to say I'm now trying to get into a 12 week challenge with myself.
To actually do what I know I should do.
And stop making nutella paninis (damn you Mario Batali!).
I started today.
I think I have to stick under 1400 calories now that I'm a) not breastfeeding and b)comprised of much more fat than I used to be.
I'm also going to do my "I think I might be having a heart attack" Cathe Fredrick step aerobics DVD (for real peeps... it's insane) 5 times a week.
One down.
Stay tuned.
I think I mean it this time.
12 weeks... 15 pounds... back to my glory
9 comments:
George Foreman grills may be proof of the existence of evil, which thus may indirectly prove the existence of God.
I hear you. I'm not you, so I don't know all of the emotions tied to how you feel, but man, I hates lookin in the mirror. When I sit at a table, I obsessively grab handfuls of tummy flesh to prove yet again to myself that I need to lose way and keep at it.
I want to go to the beach or the pool and take off my shirt and not feel like this.
lol... Yep, that's pretty much what I feel like. Especially since now I actually have to wear a bathing suit in the damn kiddie pool (the depth of which does not offer any mercy) with Baby once a week, while about half our town looks on from 5 feet away. Kill me. It's fucking torturous for my fragile ego.
Way to go Mrs. F - badass is back!
Dude. Let's do it together. I leave for Italy June 13. I will be 139. Let's wager and have twice weekly reportings. Like old times.
Looks like you could start a nice little Mrs F reader challenge to help motivate you (and us). It really is full of emotion, isn't it? Guilt, shame, depression, frustration - who started this (I mean, like, philosophically, when did people start feeling awful about how they appear?)?? It's not right.
You can do it! Stop making excuses!
I find that the later in the day I put off exercise, the less likely I will do it. I try to do it when I take my lunch break at 11:00am and I go faster because I only have so long to do it!
And don't forget-summer is just around the corner (well-maybe not here in Wisconsin it's freaking freezing here.
I need to be doing this right along with you!
That is a bad-ass dvd. I will be doing it tomorrow.
Yes, it is so hard to put yourself first. I would think that would absolutely be the most challenging thing about homeschooling - the lack of alone time. Sounds like you have a plan, and now that you've shared it you'll be motivated to stick to it, which is awesome. I need to find that motivation for myself. I have 7-10 pounds I'd love to be rid of...
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