This one actually feels monumental.
Last year came and went... and I don't think we even exchanged cards.
Like the other time we bought cards but left them in their bags to be found, later, unsigned.
Things had been so busy with moving and school starting.
And so this year seemed big.
Driving down the flat highway across Michigan to see the traveling circus.
Kids, big, in the back.
It just all felt so right.
Like a big exhale... finally.
So many things have come and gone.
So many hard times.
And I can say, that we are better for it.
I have changed in a way that needed changing.
So it feels like an accomplishment.
A marker that feels solid.
And in the midst of this big day, is life.
Work and errands and appointments.
Anxiety about Baby's vaccinations.
She not one for the white coats after her un-anesthitized stitches.
Proving herself ever the soldier.
Not one muscle tensed.
It was amazing.
What a relief.
And then I left with the unexpected poke.
"Have you been referred to a cardiologist?"
"No...." I managed to breathe out, my own heart now racing.
Today of all days in the back of my mind.
And then, of course, yes, today of all days.
It's all part of it.
Fitting its importance.