Mrs Furious Ponders Her Plummeting Self Esteem

Despite being at an all time low weight wise I'm just a wee bit depressed about my body...er... my stomach. I don't know what the deal is but I did not enjoy the dressing room experience. One bit. And I'm frustrated and discouraged and annoyed. This is why I shop at Target. I can load up a cart (while drinking a no whip Frappucino no less) and then I can take the clothes home and try them on in the damn dark if I want to. There are no florescent lights to stand under and in truth no full length mirrors. I can see my top half and then teeter on the toilet lid to see my bottom half. I don't ever have to see my bottom half, horrendous tummy included, if I don't want to. And that is how I like it. I know I am not even 9 months postpartum and that I weigh 12 pounds less then I did pre-pregnancy, which is no small feat and I am happy about that, but how fricking long is it going to take for the jelly belly to go away?! You moms out there know what I'm talkin' about. With Kid I hadn't even begun to try and get back to my pre-pregnancy weight 9 months postpartum so I really have nothing to compare this to. But right now I am thin, pretty damn thin, and yet my waist is still the same measurement as when I weighed 12 pounds more. Clothes are a nightmare since I don't feel that anything fits me well. And in order to fit my body they are tightish in the waist which just makes me feel fat. I mean seriously how much do I freaking have to lose to fit in a damn pair of pants?!? And I know some of you are like "Shut Up Mrs F I wish I weighed what you weigh.. when will it be enough for you all ready?" Well that is exactly what I would like to know. When will it be enough? When will I not look down and see a roly-poly belly, and I am not exaggerating, it is still doughy squishy and roll-y despite hovering in the 114s (and before you throw pitch forks at me I'm only 5'3). I've got my body fat down to 22.7%. What is it going to take? Maybe this is just a postpartum issue (I hope) but I am frustrated nonetheless. Maybe I need to read some of my old posts. But right now I'm tired and I'm just not feelin' it.
And the fact that this is what I am wearing isn't helping...

And those wets spots are baby snot if you are wondering!