I really wanted to put up a *good* post. Let you all know that this is really not getting me down. It's hard when I use this as a daily outlet to give the full picture. The news day to day has tended toward the bad... crisis management. But we're not breaking down. The good news is that crisis management is my skill set.
So in some perverse way I'm stimulated and functioning at my best.
Overall our house is a happy one.
Happier than most.
Mr F and I like each other. And we are in a really good place in our marriage. We're not letting outside stress turn into inside resentments.
And that is saying something.
We're on the same page. And we're making plans.
A lot of things have sucked in the past few years. But in someways they've freed us up... some literally and some mentally.
Having taken this chance to come here... and having it bomb out underneath us... but having it (surprisingly) strengthen us instead of weaken us... I think it has given us the courage to risk even more.
If that makes sense.
So maybe things will all fall into place. Maybe they won't.
And that's okay. Because maybe that's what we need to take the chance on making our own happiness.
Maybe what we need is to step up and choose for ourselves.
For now I'm making cookie dough for the girls to roll out.
And they're holding me to it.