Sunday, January 6, 2008
I just wanted to formally thank everyone who has been reading and commenting and thinking of me during these last few miserable days. I'm sorry if I didn't comment back to you directly. I did get everyone's comments and REALLY they all have helped me tremendously. I don't know what I did to get such a great group of readers but I am so thankful for you all... on a good day... let alone how supportive and wonderful you have all been this weekend. I have a very hard time being vulnerable and asking for help (which is clearly how I got in this mess to being with) and so it is not very often that I allow myself the opportunity to be supported or even trust that I will be. As many days as I question how much time I spend blogging... and try to justify or rationalize how much better I feel about myself for doing so versus how many times I tell Kid to "hold on just a minute I need to answer these questions"... I never could have imagined how powerful and real the connections I have made here would really be. Friday night was literally one of my lowest points. Had I been dealing with that alone I can only imagine it might have become unbearably low. But thanks to all of you I wasn't. I may have been locked in my bathroom screaming my lungs out... but I was not alone in there. So I thank you. Really, really, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am doing much better and will hopefully be posting some video of me doing something completely asinine to prove it.