Friday, August 7, 2009

What The Heck Is Going On?!

Why can't I just finish a post... right?

Here is the thing...

What I'm thinking about right now is serious... for me.

As you know I blog about all sorts of shit on here.

I'm totally honest and self-revealing... most of the times that's all hunky dory. I'm like that in real life too. But there are times when being that open in such a public format (where people are free to share with me their opinions on me), well, at times that makes me more vulnerable than I'm up for.

Like now.

This is me being vulnerable and wearing it on my sleeve so that if when I do decide to show you my cards you'll just respectfully keep you mouth shut if you don't like what you see.

Sometimes what you have to say (and when I say "you", of course, I mean me)... especially when it is a dream is so personal and so revealing that it needs to just be left at that. You can't expect to understand someone else's choice of dream just as you can't understand their fears. They just are there at a soul level inside you. And they need to be respected for what they are.

But I am working on a plan. Because I've seen the immense, immeasurable, difference it has been for our family to have Mr F not just enjoying, but getting enrichment and fulfillment from his job. To have that satisfaction trickle down into his entire being and then pass around our house like a contagion. And, by God, I deserve to have that level of enjoyment and enrichment in my life as well. Just think... we might combust from all that happiness.

more to come

6 comments:

Supermom said...

I think I missed something!!!

Sorry we didn't get to see each other yesterday! I took the girls downtown to venture around!

What's going on??

Robin said...

Ok. The curiosity is killing me.

I completely understand the reluctance to put it out there. Some things you just want to keep to yourself rather than chance someone saying something ugly about it.

And the wanting enrichment and fulfillment? I get that too. Fred doesn't like his job and the kids are making me crazy, so we don't have nearly as much joy in our lives as we would like. I'm trying really hard to figure out how to fix that. I am very interested to hear your plan.

carrie said...

I think whether you're putting it out into the universe privately or writing about it on your blog doesn't matter. Just that your putting it out there at all! Where the focus goes the energy flows, right? Sending positive energy your way. :)

Mrs Furious said...

Supermom,
You didn't miss anything. I'm just nervous.

Robin,
Yeah... you get it. I've got a playdate today and then hopefully I'll get a chance to sit down.

workout mommy said...

oh, I know where you are coming from. Although I have a great house, our area is not great and I basically have no real-life friends. The cost of living is crazy and my husband travels 80% of our life, which makes for a very long, miserable week.

but in reality, we are stuck here.
and I think that is the worst feeling in the world. Knowing you want a change, but realizing it is near impossible.

so i look forward to reading about your plan and hopefully getting inspired to maybe get my own! :)

Deb said...

It makes me happy for you just to read that you and Mr. F have strategized together on your plan, because I know how important it is to have your spouse on board with your dream.

You do NOT have to spill the details here for us to be behind you.

And Workout Mommy? Ohhhh... I know your pain. Hugs.

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